Friday, January 12, 2007

CLOUDED DAYS

i've realized that i've never posted anything depressing, so after 15 entries, this would be the first. i honestly think that intellect is a CURSE in disguise. aiyo, it makes you think more deeply. it makes you more reflective. it makes you understand more. somehow, the smarter you get, the more DIFFICULT it gets to appreciate the finer, more simple things.
i hate being asked who i love more. it's the lowest state to put a child in. i hate being included in problems you create. it's degrading, it's torturing. i hate having my emotions toyed with. it's ruthless and disgusting. i hate feeling low time and time again. it's dismal. it's draining. it's painful. not everything has a brighter side to it.
i'm not a firm believer of KARMA. i don't think that all downs are accompanied by ups of equal magnitudes. those who know me well would know how optimistic i am. but whoever said that "life has a fair share of ups and downs" must have been seriously MISTAKEN.
i'm through with being sad. hah. gottsta go!
ainwashere! 120106

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